A Mother's Musings and Mumblings

I wish I had a copy of the learning objectives for today. Or for the year. I have this sinking feeling that there’s something important that I’m supposed to be learning here but I can’t quite articulate what it is. So I’m paralyzed. I know how this goes – if I fail to learn the lesson, I’ll get another chance, and another, and another, until I get it right. So I REALLY want to get this right. But how “right” is “right”? At what point is the lesson still incomplete?

I know I’ve faced this lesson before. The last time I got an incomplete and so here I am again. I am NOT going to take this test again but when I don’t even know what the test is measuring how can I be sure?

What’s the lesson? What does it matter? Doesn’t fate offer you this kind of learning opportunity no matter what the content?  It’s just that there are some lessons that I’m more motivated to avoid being taught again than others. Being reminded not to forget the parking meter I think I can be not only confident that I’ll face again but comfortable facing it. Relationships, on the other hand, well there are lessons there that I would do anything to avoid. But how?

We now join this program already in progress.

That’s my way of saying welcome. I’m not going to bother with a long introduction, telling you about my childhood and all the major events in my life. Frankly, I’m too busy living my life at the moment to bother recalling it all. Besides, if it’s important, you’ll hear about it as we go.

Note the time stamp. That can be your first bit of information about me – I don’t sleep well.