A Mother's Musings and Mumblings

Anyone ever miss anything that they didn’t know they wanted or had? You know. Like, say, you love your job (OK, so I can’t wrap my brain around that and typing it is difficult) and everything is rolling along just like you like it. Then, one day, out of the blue you learn that you’re going to get a promotion.

You didn’t ask for it. You didn’t know it was coming. Heck, you’re not entirely sure you want it. I mean, you love your job and a promotion means doing some new things and giving up some old ones.

But you’re excited. Over time you allow yourself to get used to the idea of this change and what it will mean. You come to terms with what you’ll give up and really get enthusiastic about the new bits.

Then.

Poof.

You find out that the whole thing just isn’t going to happen. Sorry. Maybe someday it will but not now. Carry on.

Before any of this happened, you were happy. You liked where you were and what you had. You never even got anything new – Hel, you weren’t even sure you wanted anything new! But the thought of it, the promise was enough. Something shifted and now all that made you happy before feels like settling for less that you could have.

It’s like finding something you didn’t know you were missing and then having it taken away.